Whizzz.... Was that December???

Where has this month gone? I can't believe Christmas is over for another year and I am back at work.. Hubby has a couple of weeks off, and has asked me to supply him with a list of jobs I would like done around the house... I'm trying not to be too mean about it, as I could have him running around like a headless chook with a list of jobs as long as your arm.. I figure as long as I don't have to cook more than three times a week while he is off work then I am happy! He's good like that...

This whole whizzing by of time thing would be OK, except I just worked out that if I finish work to begin my Maternity Leave on the last Friday in February, then I have only 8 and a half weeks to go, or if I finish on the first friday in March, I have only 9 and a half weeks to go.. Either way that is a scary thought!!! Just thinking about it makes me exhausted...

As my tummy rapidly outgrows every item of clothing I own and Beanie's kicks get bigger and harder, I am reminded that this baby is going to be a reality pretty soon.. I have less than 3 months to go, and quite frankly, I'm worried.. Will Hubby and I be good parents? Will Beanie be a good baby or one of those ones that screams all the time, won't sleep and is impossible to settle? Can I put this off and come back in a year or so??

Honestly though, I know these thoughts are irrational, I mean, I know we'll be Ok parents, because I think we are OK people, and I'm sure that as long as hubby and I are relaxed and happy, then Beanie will be too, and my doctor assures me that as yet, there is no way to prolong the inevitable and put it off for a year or so.. There is just so much to think about..

I guess that although I have had Beanie growing inside me for 6 months, and have felt the kicking and moving for the last couple of months, I don't think the fact that the thing moving around and kicking me would actually materialise into my child had hit me. Until I saw the baby clothes.....

Hubby's mum has been stockpiling baby stuff.. Mostly clothes and such, which she gave to us at Christmas.. When Hubby and I had a good look through it yesterday, it occured to me that there are small person clothes in my house for a reason.. The reason being that the thing in my belly will be filling those clothes soon...

Anyway.. Belly is continuing to grow.. It just keeps expanding!! I'm convinced I am going to explode, or at least have trouble fitting through a standard door.. I'm also on the lookout for a small marquee to wear... :-)